no to no integrity

I can survive without it just as well since it isnt really any thing at all. what is most important is that i do not throw away mama's face and my own self-worth down the toilet bowl.

Tan Zhun En does as she says. She keeps her pride.

=0)

I MUST GET IT

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA HEHEHEEH HAHAHAAH LOL OMG WILL I LOL AHAHAHAHA HEHEHEH HOHOHHHOH XIAO LOL REALLY YEA HAHAHAHAH GO GO GO TAN QUEK GUO CHEN JUST DO IT AND STAY

mine

sticky surface salty feelings. mundane day. flew the years have past. here in this room sits an undeserving girl who takes pleasure in indulging in self-pity and wallowing in negative and self-destructive thoughts. i love her. i love her too. yet i have never been lovable to them. what am i doing. i have done this countless times without seeming to grow or improve. i told you i love being self-destructive. what for. this sickness has been with me ever since i entered school. 10 years have passed. what is the difference. this is the silly angst of a childish mind. what. really? oh i see. what can i say when this is not the first time im going this. seeking attention. i guess so. for? to gratify my vainity. how i wish you would. you would leave a little something behind other than regret and shallowness in me. why and whatever for! i promised not to go there so many times yet i cannot resist the temptation. for my will power is weak. n my motivation hazy. perhaps only seeing the coffin or being in it myself will wake me up. Thanks. thanks. i am not like that! i do not want to be like that! for? to procrastinate. n i would put you back. Not. although this will make no difference to you. this i promise myself that i will keep this promise for till school reopens. Caroline Bingley. How i feel i am like her. Yikes. that is why i must keep my OWN PROMISE. =) bye bye and hi! to the new one inside ! =)

N.ME.

我有我的精彩，我有我的未来

I am going to climb unhindered up the wall, past the two bumps,touch the end,and say Yes!

And of course tighten the belt and put on the high socks.


我有我的精彩，我有我的未来!

To Myself