My dear Self shouldnt be so selfish

Hey I am Happy agian! =)
haha i was XXXXXZXXX just now but now I am all smiles.
The power of songs, the right one, in changing your moods!=) sigh or it's just fluctuating hormones too.hmm dear blog, you know what? tomorrow im going to be soooo very very very happy=D .looking at the wide-smiled face, it does seems a bit contrived to me.I am convincing myself to be happy! =p so? as long as it works.

what a joke, all triggered by an IDIOT.the idiocy emphasized by the CAPs of course. this is why they say 'nv da bu zhong yong' fancy upsetting the whole house because of some self-imagined issues about him.tsk tsk what a bad girl you are, so childish and inconsiderate and unfillial.to think ur going to be 19 next year?

these past few days have been such a waste.you live by looking at people's pictures.lOL why not go and die if u intend to continue doin this.so pathetic.loser of losers! wake up la , wash ur hair, blow it so it doesnt look too flat then just look out of the window!of course wht ill see wiill be the hdb block in front.But figuratively, ill see wide expanse of an azure blue sky and rolling white clouds and green green meadows.haha how cliched! but I know what I mean.

My target for tomorrow is to hit 5 people.thats the BOTTOM LINE.FIVE ! FIVE! FIVE! FIVE! FIVE! Or not Ill never let myself live it down.=)

another goal is that Ill NOT come online for Friday, Sat and Sun. BREAK THIS PROMISE, and Ill DIE.
yes Ive to say this to make sure Ill do it.

alrite dear, it's very late now, you don't really want puffiness and sullen skin when you have to approach people tomorrow.Goodnight my mama's and my own love.

sleep content, wake up happy and driven.